nothings impossible; if we work hard for it

how can i do better in just a month?
mebe Joan and Clio (surprisingly Clio is right) are right. i will never know how good i am cos theyre Bytes and i'm not one of them. thus, theyre wayy faster.
but seriously, they are wayy faster even without me being on the opti.
hopefully the training in June will make me better and all. i will do those blooming Starts well. but then again, one month. one bloody month. i still have lots of things to cover. blooming heavens!
you guys better stop pacifying me. it aint doing any good. like saying how everything is going to be alright when it isnt cos its all going to be my fault. all mine.
i better stop. and continue "reflecting" in my notebook.

read this:
You've been so frustrated with them you can hardly stand to be in the same room. For some reason, you're still interested in how they are -- maybe because you're not convinced that avoiding you was what they were really after.

seems familiar, eh? well, it would if you're in my shoes.

mammy and daddy's gone to Bugis to get their new freaking phones ): theyre going to get them damned o2 mini palm things. how cool! when will i get my flip phone?! when? when? prolly once they save enough money after buying those confounded little devils. my phone aint going to be as expansive as theirs ok. its going to cost like whatt? 600$ while theirs are like 1600$ all together? not including those ++ stuff. ah, damm.

goodbye world, i'm leaving.